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Sunday, 07 December 2008

  • Bummed Out

    I'm feeling a little down. Christmas is comming up. The year's ending. Wintertime blues. Here's why:

    I haven't reached my goal weight, and at this rate, I'm not going to by x-mas.

    My father moved out of the house and I haven't heard from him since.

    My mother has the potential of being really sick. My sister is perpetually sick...sometimes I wonder if I'm the only healthy person in the house (knock on wood).

    I have so many plans for the upcoming year and no clue how to tackle them all.

    Or how to afford them...my finances are a mess.

    Which is why I'm still living at home.

    I really want to be in school, but I'm trying valiantly to save up money for college next year.

    But all in all, things could be worse. I found this quote:

    Everything will be okay in the end. If its not okay, then its not the end.

Saturday, 06 December 2008

  • Do Curse Words Really Count Anymore?

    Is there any "curse word" you could call me that would hurt my feelings? Is there any word that could hurt yours?

    My sister and I were having a discussion about this yesterday and we reasoned...no, not so much. Bitch, Whore, Twat, Hoe, Slut, or...dun dun dun...the dreaded "C" word. Cunt. There, I typed it.

    But why are all the words that are geared to hurt me about my sexuality or my genitals? Most of these words held power back in the day when women were trying to break stereotypes and men had to use something to put them in their place.

    But today, I think we've reclaimed most of them. Bitch - certainly. I use that word every day. Usually to describe myself. Girls call each other hoes and sluts all the time.

    But wait- is that a good thing? Sure we've reclaimed the curses, but are we devaluing ourselves or just the words?

    I think that to be afraid of using a word, or of being called that word, gives it an infinite amount of power. And to use it frequently lessens its potency and its ability to generate the hate and fear associated with it.

    So, should girls in grade school sling about these words? Should men in the boardroom? If we can call each other bitches and hoes with no second thoughts, have we taken a step forward or a giant step back?

Tuesday, 10 July 2007

  • Poem 1 of the summer: # 26 pg 118 from Kowit's In the Palm of Your Hand: The Poet's Portable Worksho

    (A Chance Poem: - use the first and last words from the pages of a book (Lover Eternal/J. R. Ward) taken from a variation of the dates of my birthday 07/01/85 t[ex: pg 78, 185, etc] to compose a poem)

    The list of words,

    Was     you     ah     house     please

    Back     yeah     Were     then     Croaked

    mister    Not     when     her     Pavlov

    in     the     she     hoping      hole     mary

    sister     metal     did     on     deeply     I

    the     her     its     beautiful     they    

    offered      somehow

     

    Bliss

    Deeply beautiful

    Somehow...not

    You all were hoping.

    Sister Mary made her offerings.

    Mister P worshipped us back then.

     

    Ah, but was I pleased

    when she croaked out nothing

    The whole house was silent

     

    I screamed quietly in pleasure

    Metal and rubber squealed

    As they stumbled back, muttered

    Its--she did it --on her--but we

     

    Yeah, I say

    Whatever.

    To me

    It was

    Beautiful.

Tuesday, 12 December 2006

  • I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've got this burning desire to move. Again. To go someplace new, that I've never been to. And stay there for a while. First it was montana. Now I'm thinking I'd like to go to Maine. I've never been there. I don't really know anything about it. Its cold and they have lobsters. Which I don't really like anyway.  I've been thinking about my future lately and I don't like what I see. It would drive me crazy to get a job that I only kind of like and an apartment I barely tolerate and can barely afford in the same town that I grew up in. I would go mad. Living in one place just doesn't appeal to me. At all. And that's kind of scary. What's wrong with that? Nothing I guess. Its just not for me. In my dream world, I would move every year or so. Just skip from town to town, country to country. Go where ever the wind or my whims take me. I hope that I'll be financially secure enough and not tied down too much to move. Who knows what's going to happen, but I'd like to go find out about the rest of this crazy world and the rest of myself.

    So yeah...Maine.

    Why not?

Tuesday, 09 May 2006


  • TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
    Name: Mel
    Birthday: 7/1/85
    Birthplace: Abington, PA
    Current Location: Missoula, MT soon to be Villas, NJ
    Eye Color: Blue
    Hair Color: Brown
    Height: 5'7"
    Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
    Your Heritage: Italian with lots of other white European cultures thrown in
    The Shoes You Wore Today: Brown Sandals
    Your Weakness: accents
    Your Fears: torture
    Your Perfect Pizza: extra cheese and greasy 
    Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to make lots of money
    Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: LOL
    Thoughts First Waking Up: I'm going back to sleep
    Your Best Physical Feature: eyes
    Your Bedtime: between 2 and 5
    Your Most Missed Memory: the skating rink in Voorhees
    Pepsi or Coke: Coke
    MacDonalds or Burger King: McDonald's
    Single or Group Dates: hmmmm...
    Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Ick...neither
    Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
    Cappuccino or Coffee: Eww...
    Do you Smoke: not usually!
    Do you Swear: Fuck no....thats a bloody stupid question
    Do you Sing: badly
    Do you Shower Daily: Usually
    Have you Been in Love: no
    Do you want to go to College: I'm in college but I really wanna go to art school
    Do you want to get Married: Never or lots of times
    Do you belive in yourself: On a good day
    Do you get Motion Sickness: no
    Do you think you are Attractive: On a good day
    Are you a Health Freak: On a bad day
    Do you get along with your Parents: Not really
    Do you like Thunderstorms: LOVE 'em
    Do you play an Instrument: I wish
    In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah
    In the past month have you Smoked: no
    In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
    In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
    In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yeah the small, crappy Montana "mall"
    In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: not the whole box
    In the past month have you eaten Sushi: I never eat Sushi
    In the past month have you been on Stage: yeah, but it was only for Irish class
    In the past month have you been Dumped: no
    In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
    In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
    Ever been Drunk: of course
    Ever been called a Tease: no
    Ever been Beaten up: not really
    Ever Shoplifted: no
    How do you want to Die: I don't....
    What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A photographer and a writer
    What country would you most like to Visit: Ireland, then England, then Scotland
    In a Boy/Girl..
    Favourite Eye Color:  blue or something out of the ordinary
    Favourite Hair Color: anything but blonde
    Short or Long Hair: long
    Height: my height or taller than me
    Weight: skinner than me (not hard)
    Best Clothing Style: anything comfy and black with a pair of jeans
    Number of Drugs I have taken:  Just one
    Number of CDs I own: a few
    Number of Piercings: just two
    Number of Tattoos: none yet
    Number of things in my Past I Regret: a few but I try not to dwell on them

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    • Location: New Jersey, United States
    • Birthday: 7/1/1985
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 10/3/2003

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